Senioritis is usually defined as the lax attitude students in their final year of high school take on. While it has been something I’ve anticipated for my whole academic life, I’ve come to the realization that it may be hindering me from making the most of the only year in high school I’ve got left. My whole high school career has led up to taking the college entrance exams, and now that they’ve passed, I’ve been granted the opportunity to enjoy what school has left to offer. Sadly, my constant anticipation for the future, coupled with my senioritis, has transformed my outlook into one of dread rather than excitement.
Right from the get-go, I intended to cast my senior year aside. “Lose a battle, win the war.” The battle being my academics and the war being CET’s. While I don’t think it was necessarily a bad decision given that you can only take an entrance exam once, it was when I began overcompensating myself for the struggle of maintaining my grades. My scores dipped, and I tried my best to ignore my instinctual panic and urge to make up for it. I turned off the switch it my brain that made me care about school and shifted my focus towards the future.
This wouldn’t have been that big of a deal if it remained temporary. However, by the time CET’s were over, I felt as though it would be too difficult to bring up my grades, and just gave up little by little. I hated going to school, and I constantly ranted about how I hated wasting time. Classes seemed irrelevant, and I just went through the motions. I was slightly losing my mind— I was so bored and I couldn’t find anything I deemed worthy enough to stimulate my brain.
It was only when results came out that I came to the realization that this was my last year, and I was taking it for granted. My friends are headed in different directions, and I won’t be able to go back to the present moment. I had a High School Musical moment— high school wasn’t meant to last forever.
In light of this, I’ve come up with a new definition for senioritis. Senioritis (n) – a hindrance to the optimization of a senior’s final year of high school; an attitude that prevents one from treasuring their day-to-day lives as high school students. I’ve decided to make my final report card the prettiest one, not because of my grades, but because of the lessons I’ve learned throughout my whole high school journey.